I’ve been learning some interesting things about myself over the last few months. Well, interesting to me, at any rate. For a long time I’ve held the prejudice that fitness implied wealth. Or at least money. Or at least a better grasp on how to handle money than what I have. But I’m learning that the days I do the worst at trying to eat clean are often the days I find myself with cash in my pocket. It’s easy to succumb to temptation on payday. That’s when I can afford it.

The last few weeks have been a struggle. I had a couple of temp assignments that meant early mornings then straight from downtown to some theater or another for either rehearsal or performance. My almost daily training routine got bumped down to a couple times a week so that I could get some sleep. It’s not a good reason, but it’s the main one. I was just too damn tired.

Knowing my schedule would cut into my training time, one might think I would double down on the diet, but here’s where I learned just how far I still have to go as far as creating a new lifestyle. Because I was working, I had the excuse of too little time. I also, because I was working, had a little extra cash. Most of which I ate.

To be fair to myself, I did not binge to the degree I was once known for. I did not resume my previous soda intake in spite of vast temptations. (Except for once. I had a cold, I hadn’t slept, I still had two hours of work at my temp assignment, I had a rehearsal that evening, and I was falling asleep at my desk. I bought a Diet Mountain Dew from the vending machine. The other option was coffee… and I just don’t like coffee. I don’t regret my decision.) I did not indulge in fast food the way I used to, nor did I go overboard on doughnuts or candy. I did have fried chicken a couple of times, but mostly I stuck to the deli. I could have done a better job preparing food at home, and next time I will make a better effort to do that.

It was a learning experience, and my first real bump in the road. Fortunately I haven’t actually started to slide backward. My weight’s holding steady in the mid 270’s, which is amazing for me. Still a long way to go, though.